[[How has been]]

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

[[haizhaizhaiz]]

I am really lacking in self-control. and have started to behave like and ass towards teachers. how nice.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:38 PM|

Monday, March 30, 2009

[[hello]]

ARGH I JUST wasted my early dismissal. retarded. me

[[I wrote this at]]*|5:42 PM|

Sunday, March 29, 2009

[[I wonder...]]

I seem to enjoy mutilating my face... and get repulsed by the aftermath.

I gave up my resolve to file. how depressing.
I failed to uphold my commitment to terminate darkthrone playing. absolutely dejecting.
THis just sucks my msn is screwed.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:52 PM|

Friday, March 27, 2009

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haiz. If only i put in as much effort as i am willing to put in now... this just sucks. But who cares? ncc will be over soon and well, i hope i will not regret it even though i think i will.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:39 PM|

Monday, March 23, 2009

[[reflection 1/4 year loool]]

Ive realised that im wasting too much time on DT.
Ive realised that DT sucks.
Ive realised that DT forums are just pointless
Ive realised that dotA is fun.
Ive realised that being dotA siao is worse than being DT siao.
Ive realised that im no-life in playing DT.
Ive realised that I lack a goal in life therefore im playing DT.
Ive realised that DT sucks, again.
Ive realised that im not going to stop playing it soon.
Ive realised that the only thing i can do is to cut down time spent.

So much for DT

Ive realised that my chess sucks.
Ive realised that i actually need my chess coach.
Ive realised that ive been an ass towards my chess coach.
Ive realised that arthas is better than i thought. but still lousier than me i think :P
Ive realised that ive not been playing much chess.
Ive realised that im still very arrogant.
Ive realised that im a lousy in-charge for chess.
Ive realised that boonpin was 10 times better than me.
Ive realised that even arthas can be a better in-charge than me.
Ive realised that chess needs a major overhaul or its going down.
Ive realised that the school doesnt care about chess.

So much for chess.

Ive realised that ncc is full of tards.
Ive realised that there are still several decent charlies.
Ive realised that they are not enough.
Ive realised that we have failed in ncc. If you dont like we u can change it to I
Ive realised that our batch is only slightly better than the previous, worse than the previous previous.
Ive realised that improvement is good, but itll be too little too late.
Ive realised that our sec 1s are fail. very fail.
Ive realised that ncc has actually shaped me alot.
Ive realised that im not a very good s3 assist.
Ive realised that although there are better ones, most are lousier.
Ive realised that human relations are important.
Ive realised that being alone is good.
Ive realised that having brother(s) is also good.
Ive realised that asm is becoming a kuniang.
Ive realised that I used to whine and complain alot. Not that I was doing much. I wasnt, but the majority was doing less than me.
Ive realised that I put in effort too little too late.
Ive realised that we cant change 50% of things in ncc.
Ive realised that we cant be bothered to change the other 50%.
Ive realised that whatever we do now is futile.
Ive realised that we are leaving soon. too early.
Ive realised that ive failed in my goals.
Ive realised that im the reason that ive failed rather than me the excuses and fingerpointing im used to.

So much for ncc.

Ive realised that I cant take my studies for granted.
Ive realised that I have been taking my studies for granted.
Ive realised that I have been rather blessed with respects to studies.
Ive realised that I need to put in effort to maintain my grades.
Ive realised that I am very high-handed with respects to my studies.
Ive realised that studies is very low down my piorioty list.
Ive realised that I do not care about that.
BLEAHZ.
Ive realised that I am going to do something about my studies. Somebody remind me.
Ive realised that I like to push responsibilities to others like the above example.

So much for studies.

Ive realised that I have very bad time management.
Ive realised that I like school.
Ive realised that I am seriously biased.
Ive realised that I am rather stubborn.
Ive realised that I am a perfectionist for the wrong things (like gaming)
Ive realised that if I put in effort I can attain results.
Ive realised that I am lazy.
Ive realised that I have to change.
Ive realised that I like to complain but do nothing about it and push responsibility and blame to others.

So much for attitude.

Ive realised that friends are very important.
Ive realised that good friends are hard to come by.
Ive realised that friends fade. <-- really saddenning.
Ive realised that zhen xi-ing is very important.
Ive realised that an apology, an real apology is indeed great.
Ive realised that im jealous easily.
Ive realised that you cant lose what you never had.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:33 PM|

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

[[something about ncc]]

Hihi. Tmr is NCC CAMP. WOOTS. And chess competition. AND SCRWEED UP HOLIDAYS.

[[I wrote this at]]*|3:15 PM|

[[nothing about ncc]]

Woot phase one in progress. pissing off almost everyone now. how fun.

[[I wrote this at]]*|3:10 PM|

Thursday, March 12, 2009

[[Screwing up of life starts now.]]

Phase 1.

Objective: eliminate fake friends?
Duration: until end of march
Personnel: Me
Equipment: Tongue

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:03 PM|

Monday, March 9, 2009

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Hi all. How are you?
Schools been retarded. Im wasting my time in school. HAIYA. and i keep playing darkthrone. retardeeeeeeeeeddddddddd. and i dont play dota, play very very very little. supersupersuper little.
And, there is something wrong. very wrong. dont know what

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:33 PM|

Friday, March 6, 2009

[[Again...]]

Ncc again. Haizz... I feel that i have failed. Well... going against most of the ncc leadership would be retarded in the first place.

Nowadays, i am slacking during ncc trainings. And i give stupid excuses such as other people are worse than me. which is very true. I am doing more or around average. But this is never going to help. I realised that in each batch there are a few students who have dreams of changing ncc once they become specialists. To save it. But these students always fail. In the face of the daunting task and the effort needed. They start to slack. And to make matters worse, they usually aernt in any leadership position. Yea. Ohwells. The batch before us, the group of people failled. left those retards in control of ncc. Looks like...

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:05 PM|

Sunday, March 1, 2009

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Weekly posts it is...

Haiz, i am not really satisfied with life now due to remedials and stuffs. But i like the remedials somehow. Is oxymoron applicable here?

Now i shall suggest something here which i think is a good idea for the retarded remedials.
Scince most teachers are also wasting away their remedial slots- they either go through test or give us some crap worksheet or give us some crap assignment or just go through some retarded thing. This just means that they are not teaching syllabus. Which is good- teaching syllabus would be entirely retarded. However, wasting time not teaching syllabus is worse than retarded... we do worksheets that are just retarded. Okay i noticed the obssesive use of the word retarded but still...

My suggestion-- During class time, teachers can just go through syllabus ENTIRELY i.e dont do any work in class other than project work. just cheong the damn thing over and do revision revision. HOWEVER, they should give more homework. THE CATCH- DO THE EXTRA HOMEWORK DURING REMEDIAL. Just put those retarded teachers/ juniour teachers >> the ones that give us our retarded common tests in the class. We have to complete all homework before we are allowed to go home. That way, we can maximise time use both during class and after class and at home. Class- pure teaching and group work. After class- pure indiv work. Home- no work. WOOTS. I just love the home- no work luhh personally. And this will also greatly benefit those that lack the self-discipline to do homework or hate doing homework people like me. AND, we can do more work scince we have like 2hours every day ONLY doing homework. But seriously, home- no work is just FUGWARB or wateva FURBAR or something.

WOots. andandand yea life just goes on i need to get some time out to put into some other more important things than studies.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:32 PM|