[[How has been]]

Friday, April 30, 2010

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life is different. i like to repeat things. so different. im not sure about the future. all these shall come to pass. i need to hold fast to what i believe in. what makes me different. what makes me me. so that i will not be lost in the ever changing world.

BTW, i failed econs test. sian.

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:35 PM|

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

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i cant sleep from 11 to 1.am, now. combination of psychological and physical irritation. (mosquitos). its the psychological one i fear.
I knw what i need to do. I cant bring myself to do it. I know its an excuse. But haiz. I really hate transition periods. If i were from IP i proally would not have this problem. lost in transition. change sucks shit. who needs progress. lets just stagnate together. and breed mosquitos.
BTW my PI got rejected. so ya, need to churn one out by friday.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:11 AM|

Sunday, April 25, 2010

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transition period is always hard. like from pri-sch to sec sch. see how much i care abt my pri sch friends now? hmmmm.... a few more months to go.. and it will be mostly over.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:30 PM|

Saturday, April 24, 2010

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hellooooooo. haiiiiiiiiiiz. chess is fun luh. ima gna be a withdrawn boy and concentrate on my studies. HAAA.

[[I wrote this at]]*|4:27 PM|

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

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so saddening. i would have gone to sch today if i was still studying in xinmin.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:00 AM|

Sunday, April 18, 2010

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not thinking properly. brain is shrouded with a thick mist. cant make sense of anything. confined, twisted. need to remove the veils. a paradigm shift would be good.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:35 PM|

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

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好寂寞

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:31 PM|

Sunday, April 11, 2010

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I am really thankful that you are more sensible than me.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:12 PM|

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i have not been acting according to my words. i will now..
it wasnt intentional, in fact, i had wanted the opposite... i suppose it wuz emotions. but it will be no more.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:23 AM|

Monday, April 5, 2010

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haiz. jc life is different. from sec sch life.
In secondary school, I knew a much larger proportion of my school population. Life wuz never really lonely. I guess this is the adapting phase again... why must there be so much change. i dont want to grow up, dont want to leave school. haiz. time should slow down. chronosphere. ohwell.
AT LEAST IT isnt as bad as when i just got into sec sch. anw they say jc is a transition period in one's life. even though it might be true i still want to make some meaningful friendships.. i dont want to go through it blindly just waiting for it to end. there will be no meaning. obviously i could invest all this time and energy into work. but obviously again i wouldnt want to do it.
today i answered a question in rmep. i felt very happy.
should i start playing chess seriously again.. i feel like... perhaps i should go the whole hog and delete my wc3. i need to spend more time on what is important and less on what is not. and homework is classified under not. but not only homework. there are other stuffs too...
why do people think democracy is the 'base' govt. like if a party gets democratically elected and goes on to destroy democracy? wth is wrong? there is nothing wrong. democracy even Being there in the first place is already a great concession already. stop all this foolish narrowminded talk. you dont have to give power to the people. people already hold the power. anw if u want the middle east govts to go out of power in place of democracy u can always stop buying oil. twerp.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:01 PM|

Sunday, April 4, 2010

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jc life is boring. i dislike tutorials. they keep giving me tutorials and other crap ws to do... sucks. tutorials serve little purpose. they should only give tutorials to those who cmi or something. why do we have to do tutorials? haiz. pretty waste time. have been studying. uh.. 2 hrs a day for 2 days in the 4 days of holiday is considered studying okay. lol. but never touch homework. haiz. i shall try to do some tmr morning... i hope... theres rmep. too. homework is the bane of a student's life luh. i hope i can do after sch. then go home noneed do. there is no sense in homework. its like the school has already taken up so much of our time and they want to enroach on whatever they have not taken up yet. makes no sense, makes no sense. cant they like keep us in school to clear all the homework. use the lesson time to do work? bahz.
everyone around me is doing pi but i have no instructions to do anything... whaaaaaat? megawaste of my holidays. and im slipping. not really giving enough time to my heavenly father.
i must defeat the devil.
if i get b i do homework okay? good.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:37 PM|

Thursday, April 1, 2010

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met up with the anderson jc people. haiz. lots of people i know there eh? i dont know what i wanted to write. time is passing. if i pray hard enough, time can slow down/stop for me.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:20 PM|