[[How has been]]

Monday, September 27, 2010

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Criteria has been changed to god-fearing.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:17 PM|

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

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embarassment is really really really bad.
wo0ot what are i talking?
which emotion feels the worst and im not defining worst.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:00 PM|

Monday, September 20, 2010

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Its so much easier to get stuff you dont want... hmm. promos in 7 days.
nothing goes here.
I dont like I did yesterday.
Saddedsation.
CRYPTIC MESSAGES EH.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:13 PM|

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

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flyyyy awaaaaay. time to sleep.!.!

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:43 PM|

Monday, September 13, 2010

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I will start studying. however much i study each day i wont do less for the next day. If i dont, well, there is no if i dont.

1 track mind is good sometimes. btw halo3 the last spartan movie hosted by machinama thingy is great.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:16 PM|

Sunday, September 12, 2010

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argh. lol i shall stop posting after midnight. make me look like i double post when i am actually not double posting. mwahahaha.

I need to do something about my pride. ugh. just when i thought i was quite good.

And i think ive frightened alot of people away due to that period of desperately finding something to substitute. Its ok people, dont be scared. I am fine now.

[[I wrote this at]]*|5:06 PM|

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musnt let one small thing affect me so much... it would be foolish to do so. so much more is at stake. i must be, selfish.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:36 AM|

Friday, September 10, 2010

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i am to only on comp at 7 p.m after i shut down now. sleeping is prohibited
LOL.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:52 PM|

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cannot. life like this cannot go on. there must be something more.
dota cant fill it. and im affecting my own health/studies lolol. bah.
try again tmr. afterall there is always tmr.
Until then.

Aiya i really blogging shit lei. not the narrative type last time (liek huiting's blog) nor concrete thoughts like er? xiaoqi?

just fragments of thoughts. proally u wont find any meaning to it.

Ah i do want near perfection. i strongly dislike any blotches, any slight mishaps. thats the problem. now what will i do with such a big stain? ever since that great blessing ive grown more and more for the worse. been devloping certain reallybad habits. i willlll dooo somethinggg sometimeee somewhereee. <- i will laugh at people like these. so i am laughing at myself.

I dont know what I want. Perhaps i just like this weird feeling.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:17 AM|

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

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too high expectations of myself. perhaps i should moderate them...
whats with this... need a plan B.
i keep saying i will start, i will quit. ah dont read. this is all crap. cant oragnise brain
sry friends for my shitty attitude, been thinking too highly of myself. was brought down to earth.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:27 AM|

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

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hahahahahahahahahaha.

maples music videos are great luh seriously. wth is with me nowadays...

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:18 PM|

Monday, September 6, 2010

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why? lies.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:48 AM|

Saturday, September 4, 2010

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Made the wrong choice in a chess game. I can draw parallels to that.

Just realised i really put too many eggs into one basket. Now i have nothing to do, other than study, and play chess. Obviously i choose not to study, not yet, until i finally get the urge to try and beat everyone lolol. No dota, no cs, no lf2, no outing, no illicit forms of entertainment, no neopets, no lami lam lam, no fat-ex... striving to lead a 'right' life is so hard.

Just read an article. That views hate/anger is ok as it brings about clarity and allows people to move on. I think not, we should, as osama says, control our emotions.

Id rather retire and smoke and play chess at void decks all day long. just waiting to die. aernt we all waiting to die anyway.

I am making my parents worried. With all the not studying and mooching around. hmm, once again i tell myself ill get to it soon.

am eating unhealthly too. shilin chicken for lunch?! i havent eat dinner yet. im gonna eat cornflakes and kit kat for dinner. is this some sign of depression?

I must not have knee-jerk reactions otherwise ill just screw up other people's lives and my own much much moreeee.

Hi. Should have anticipated it better, i saw the signs but ignored them. i think too highly of myself.

I dislike quitters. yet i dont see any. way. out.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:07 PM|

Friday, September 3, 2010

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one failure should not push me to be overzealous to correct the error or find other compensations. i shall control myself.

btw. got people studying notttttt. v sian. study with me luh.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:37 PM|

Thursday, September 2, 2010

[[Education]]

I still think singapore's education system is getting more shitty. so much for not being elitist. they are being. hypocritical. whats with the ip schools. psle is full of shit luh. you people suck.

so what now, all those schools dont even have NA or NT streams. so how? whole life dunnid meet those people alr luh? very bad very bad.

You guys need to devalue exams (once again). exams such a definite means to an end that it has become and ends in itself and you find people going through means such as tuition to achieve that end. whihc is basically stupid as it is only a mean to an end. LOL. just start being really meritocratic and remove all the ceilings and life will be a better place. but seriously. xinmin is gng die luh. hopeless pile of shit. perhaps ive been in ri for awhile, those xinmin students behaviour is so uncouth and disgusting.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:00 PM|