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I don't know. I guess what I'm saying is, is there really any point for me to aim to live a life outside of the corporate/medical/high-stress zone? Look at us. From the age of 12, we've been told that the future is in our hands. And the best future meant RGS, or Nanyang. So it was Slog Your Brains Out And Be The Top. Then at 16, we get yet another chance to change our course, hoping to get to path that leads to the Brightest Future. It is drilled into our heads by society, by our education system, by what we see and hear and what our parents and teachers and the media tell us, that once we're there, we're gonna be somebody, and we're gonna succeed in life. Now that I am walking along that path (or so it seems), I can't seem to see where everybody is rushing to.

fascinating fascinating. whats with the do the best you can because you can. why not do the worst you can because you can. i thought i thought out my life already. apparently, im still resistant to doing work and hence thinking about such things. but i could have been wrong and such things are worth thinking about. guesswhat will happen if i flunk my a levels??? nothing!. and what will happen if i do well? nothing as well. waste time one.

i wish others would be able to discuss such stuff with me. thinking is hard. hahaha. what makes me think i can suceed anyway. even if i were to put in the hard work. does putting in the hardwork give off so much dopamine such that its the reward? why not inject yourself with a dose of that! i can sell happiness. Happiness, contentment. big idea. big idea. not as simple as it looks.

practical talk can only go so far. where is the fun in practical talk? that wouldnt be called talk would it. at least it doesnt seem like that to me. crapping is one step higher i guess. but that would be for purely entertainment purposes. ah. playing alot of runescape. i would like to spend my time enjoying. not playing computer. especially alone. i hate playing computer alone. (i just hate studying/watching tv more) Would like to just go around singapore with some friends/friend. we could go everywhere! i do enjoy company. but then again being alone isnt all that bad either.

losing so badly that you are full of respect of your opponent.

I resolve not to do what i dont like and shouldnt do. That means i will not waste time on the computer = dont like and shouldnt do Should study = dont like and should do Should play computer with friends/stuff= like and shouldnt do what are the stuff that i like and should do... hmmz..

Edit: AND IDK WHY MY PARAGRAPHS AERNT WORKING. HAHA. YOur PRObLEM. (haha been typing in HTML)