[[How has been]]

Saturday, December 31, 2011

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hello hello. i are supra high and supra sian. why ah?

rockband is still quite fun!

i dont know what im doing with my life lahhh. i guess need to go out more? something. like. that.

mooching around home is not the way to go mans.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:51 AM|

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i should find out how to cope with sadness and any other emotion.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:00 AM|

Monday, December 26, 2011

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hihi im not dead
1stly, merry christmas. im back from thailand.
2ndly, aiyah idk what to write already.
holidays is damn sian. i am going to think about it after i get back from ubin.
lester is very annoying. but everyone knows that idk why does he always do that.

in other news. nothing is going to repeat again! i posess sufficient knowledge and control to alter courses!
ohwell. argh. sometimes i feel like going into the army isnt that bad afterall.
and its been terribly hard to think. alot of distractions like sleep, tv, computer... etc. etc.
i really need to set a day.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:27 PM|

Monday, December 19, 2011

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hello hello. im flying off tmr. wont be back till arnd christmas. have fun.
now that thats done i feel kinda happier?
i wouldnt know. ohwell it fortunate that i get self esteem boosts from diversified sources eh?

i do hope its just a weird selection of music. nothing into it right? haha.
shall we dota?

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:34 AM|

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

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This real world is too complicated and it makes me tired.
I know these happy days will have its end.
And I can never go back where I used be
When everyone forgot me: I lost my mind
But for now, I cannot find the reason but I can't feel anything anymore...
Every time I remember the face that I've been seeing
Gives me a little comfort

i feel very loooost. can someone, tell me what to do?

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:41 PM|

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do what you say do what you say do what you say. you dont want another repeat do you.

[[I wrote this at]]*|2:51 PM|

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everyone is a pretender.
because whoever does not pretend loses out.
therefore everyone pretends and everyone also loses out.
its the prisoner's dilemma all over.

i know what i want. i said what i want. yet i do not behave like that is what i want.
pathetique

i shall try my best not to control too much. and attempt to be god.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:11 AM|

Saturday, December 10, 2011

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new information = need processing = need time = new course of action..
brood and brood and brood some more.
ahh feeling of not being who you want to be sucks.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:57 PM|

Friday, December 9, 2011

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i wanna live my lifeee. like a kid without worries.
somethimes, thinking too much is bad. i thought of that.
i rather be a water droplet. moving around in the ocean. flying in the sky. meditating underground?
wah during holidays i feel damn nua. like everything also dunwan do. preparing for the army i see!
i overcalculated everything. i feel like i tried to be an omnimus. and over-planned. over quantified. over weighed. and now i lost much. what a waste. i wont repeat this mistake i hope. not only hope, i wont.
i feel very unhuman lei. like a robot. why am i trying to be so logical. i shouldnt have this deep-seated suspicion of people. and not be so CBA-self-satsifaction-maximising. but then what do i do instead?
you cant remove something and not replace it... maybe your aromatic and hence non prone to elimination, only substituition.
i always assumed that i need to trust somebody. hmm. and where is that who. what time alr... yucks. i lost 10+k playing pawkweet slots on an unrelated note.
and my teeth hurt like crazy. i have some serious gingivitis. probably smelly breath like crazy but nobody dares to tell me. COS THEY ARE SCARED I WILL BASH THEM TO PULP.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:28 AM|

Thursday, December 8, 2011

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hi guys.
im very bored. lets go plaaay. haish, actl quite fun luh, just that...
its been awhile. i shall sleep and not bother thinking. maybe at night again! LOL
neopets very boring lei.. i cant get my memorial shield nor blaster nor freeze ray. sux. and theres nobody nobody nobody.
anybody i deem worthy would be better than nobody.
company is fun.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:46 PM|