[[How has been]]

Saturday, September 28, 2013

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Theres this feeling of impending doom.

Ok maybe dramatising, just a feeling of unpreparedness before entering the unknown. I think this is quite a joke that, as of now that my role in atec is still partly unconfirmed. but online is not the place, nor time for this. Coincidentally it is the place and time to say it is not the place and time for it. But ohwell.

Mamaaaaaaaa.

i still have a not fully completed personal statement. but its by and large done. by and large. by large by far beyond beware. hey ohhhh.

life is a tragedy. I cannot condone this uneasy not having done sufficient feeling. it feels terrible. goes against what i think i stand for. I dont like standing by doing nothing whilst others toil away. I think im the guy that likes to be in the thick of action, trying, biting off more than he can chew. Kinda 'slacking' feels terrible, no worth, nothing gained. i would look down on myself.ohwell. just slightly. one cannot be blamed for not doing what he is not supposed to do right?

Yesright,

Whyd it snow? Why d it snow?

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:44 PM|

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

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Atec is coming, life is sucking.

Woah i finally finished my personal statement. And sent it off to the vetters. Lets see what they say about it. That darn thing has been weighing on my head for the better part of the last 2 months. Now its probably at least politically correct enough to pass muster. I still wanna 表演 a little.

Thanks god. Wahaha.

Hmm. Been thinking about the MLM thingum. I might go into it, for the training. Definitely not the money earning. Now that ive heard many opinions, I conclude that it is not a desirable way of revenue. If you guys dont know what is MLM maybe you should find out. Really quite interesting.

What else... im having some issues with my game. Apparently im not devoting enough time in, as compared to the rest of my teammates. They are really quite hardcore. Everyday play. Whilst this sad person that i am has to go to camp and is occasionally uber busy. So im lagging behind and making their schedule inpredictable. and screwing up. hais. i like this team

wa keep falling asleep and not playing my game. where did my priorities go?

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:07 AM|

Saturday, September 21, 2013

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and i, think you're from another world, and i, could not love another.

and i~

lets see, what have we here? We got a predicament! Ok i gotta do my personal statement.

Ive been wondering why do people not lead a wholly congruent life? Or is it that we are just congruent as a wavering thingum. Im going overseas alot in December.

suffering some stupid self-importance issues. everything should be fine in a few weeks. i want to do a good job. and sadly, want people to know that too. this age old pride issue is still there. i think myself more important than i actually am.

ok less gaming more writing of personal statement.

[[I wrote this at]]*|8:25 PM|

Thursday, September 19, 2013

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Been creating lots of unposted stuff. mostly on uni app. will be declassified soon.
anyhow, today i booked out. cos i felt like it. ah the things i do for the greater good. gonna miss class wars again. life is a struggle, bitter and hard. university app is making my brain hurt. im not at peace. not at peace at all. and i value my peace lots. gotta do something about it man.

But then again, i feel what happens is always the best course. Because it was the decision a rational person made under environmental factors at that time. Say a drunk person decided to do something stupid, but that was the best decision that he could have made- if he could make a better one at that state he would have done it.

Hmm. Maybe it can be done statistically too.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:43 PM|

Friday, September 6, 2013

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how can something so beautiful ever die? I dont wanna do, I wanna be.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:02 AM|