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Wednesday, January 27, 2016

[[To know another and slave morality]]

So the two questions today will be: what does it take to know another? and is Christianity slave morality?

Well, school has started. Week 3 has started and I have realised that I havent been spending my time as wisely as I should. I also think, the original great enthusiasm to seek God has somewhat waned and now it is much of a decision that has to be seen through.

So, what does it take to know another?

I guess when one introduces oneself, in university, one usually mentions name, year and course of study. Such preliminary niceties give a reasonable background that, coupled with some solid guesswork from the person's personal appearance and manner of dressing and all, should give enough for... whatever purposes these niceties require. Drawing inferences from these are inevitable and, I think, not normatively wrong but rather, a prudent thing to do. What is wrong would be to write off people due to these inferences without sufficient additional information.

I personally think that (interlude, I have written a brief post on this before, 051215 it appears) I would like very much to know where this person is going and for what. Like what a person is living for and why (though the why should already be contained within the what usually).

Where the person is headed matters more than where the person currently is. Of course, the intensity of this will to head where he wants is also a major factor while capability is a minor factor.

The next thing to know, perhaps, would be what ails them. This would be somewhat a background question but yet a background that has a foot in the future. What are the issues that plague them, that they want to overcome, try to overcome. Of course, lend a hand where possible. Perhaps it is the male in me that seeks to be problem solving.

Maybe thirdly would be what do they think about themselves. This question is not easily answered honestly. Perhaps it can almost never be answered without being tinted by who it is answered to.

Tada! Then you will know another, better than you did before.

It must be stated that I tire of conversations that I really do not care about. Not that I don't want other people to talk about it, they can talk about whatever they want. Perhaps I just prefer not to engage resources into these.

Ohwell, slave morality will have to wait.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:06 PM|

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

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Lol. There is a spike in Russian viewers again. How interesting. Hi Russians.

Anyway, I think it felt really lovely when I was seeking God. Then, army happened. And I think, I have unrealistic expectations of my role in army. Then I took my eyes off God. And busied around. Sigh. I think temptation and sin can only come when your eyes are off God. God is the ultimate good that makes all contingently good things good.

So, one ought not seek the contingently good things like friendships, encouragement .etc. in themselves, but seek God and all these shall follow?

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:12 AM|

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

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First two days of school have been fast and furious. Barely any time to spend on the computer/internet. It is good. Perhaps not all the time. But it is good to be doing work, important work.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:19 PM|

Sunday, January 10, 2016

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I wanted many things

I wanted a comfortable life. A job that would pay reasonably well yet allow me sufficient freedom and time to pursue leisure and whatevernot. I would think I could do some sports, some volunteerism or, yknow, that kinda thing. Read books, pick up some hobby, meet my friends, maintain my friendships, some sporadic travelling. Visit my parents/ grandparents. Maybe do something in church on the side.

A reasonable pay I think most importantly would be for security, like in the sense that I do not starve, that I can pay tuition for my kids so that they do well in school, to feed my parents, let them have a comfortable life after bringing me up. Self-sufficiency in essence. Secondarily for social status (not in the obvious way but I think hidden within the heart), Thirdly for material comforts.

I wanted to do something meaningful. So, no desk bound job doing mindless brainless stuff. I wanted to help people or something of that sort. Inspire people, change lives, whatever. Live my print, however small, on this earth. I wanted to live a life that would have left the world better off than had I not lived. A net benefit.

I wanted a spouse that would challenge me in these things and also be my equal (or around there) for things that I deemed important.

Yknow, I wanted the normal sensible life, with some achievement.

Each of these, it seems, I have given up. Or even if they haven't been given up in it's entirety, it has been modified.

For something better.

Sigh, I want to live my life for Christ. But what am I doing, it is 1am and there is church tomorrow. I ought to sleep.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:00 AM|

Friday, January 8, 2016

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So, this holiday was rather eventful. I am glad I had it. I will post something more substantial later today.

I resolved to be more loving towards the people in army and to not be affected by it. Really, something as out of control, however sickening the loss of freedom is ought not affect my internal state which ought to be stable and controlled, grounded in Christ.

This is not the end of the something more substantial but it is late and the words don't seem to flow.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:23 PM|