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Thursday, June 30, 2016

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So I came back from Kazakhstan and really really, the main thing that struck me was how people only see the tangible gains from economic development. As Prof(?) Katsu shared, the aim of the development plan in Kazakhstan is actually targeted at a change in mindset. I shall sidestep the argument on whether development is ideal (which I think I discussed a little before I left for the trip - the main argument lies in the intangible social costs, of course that is not to say that development should not be pursued but I think it should be 'organic?' if there is even such a thing, ofc we can debate what is 'organic') and instead focus on whether a change in mindset is ideal.

So I guess the concern here is losing your identity. For mindset is a large part of being a people, I think. It is the mindset to prioritise family, to practice folk instruments and song, to welcome strangers, to trust strangers that is a large part of culture. Can I equate culture to mindset? Probably not, but I think much of culture is due to mindset, that is where you have your industrious German, the submissive Japanese women? so on and so forth. How you think drives how you act.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:58 PM|

Monday, June 13, 2016

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Perhaps I ought to rephrase "I don't intend to work". I think the word "work" can be used in different senses and when I say "I don't intend to work", I use it in the popular sense of work being something done to survive, usually requiring much effort and something that one would rather not do if possible. Here work is contrasted against leisure where one does what one wants for the sake of enjoyment. According to an article on desiringgod, God created us to work with the verse reference being Genesis 2:15 which is pre-fall. However, I think the work there is very different from the modern usage of the word "work" especially post-fall. Post-fall you have the curse of man. Presumably if this is the curse of man then, this didn't exist pre-fall.

Perhaps this gives the additional clarity needed for my position.
Perhaps it ought to be "I intend to do something of worth".

I think I shall post some comments about the supposed "rape culture" in USA, and privilege. And rape victims.

Also, I have been coughing my lungs out. Also, I have come to realise that between the truth/ what ought and 'love', the truth does not contradict love and what ought IS love, at least according to God. And 'according to God' is for me.

And I really think too much about the I. Like I am too concerned about the I. Cant I be less concerned about the I? The who shall be concerned about me? God lor. But I tend not to believe this. Sigh. I mean, pretty sure I head-believe, but not believe believe.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:32 AM|

Friday, June 10, 2016

[[Elaboration time!]]

Clearing of backlog, I really have been lazy, and sick.

Right.

1. I have no one I need to talk to.
So this was observed when I realised everyone was stuck to their phones for a much longer time than me after we get our phones back at the end of the day. I realised that everyone was like glued to their phones when I just read some chats then replied some stuffs then I was done. Like these other people either had social media to check, or had someone whom they were waiting to converse with. I guess for the attached people it would be their boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse. I have very little social media to check actually. While I browse fb quite a bit for articles to read, yknow, general knowledge and current affairs, I can dont use it at all, like I didnt even feel like browsing facebook.

2. The label "disabled" allows one to get away with alot of things. What about those that do not get the label.
So the observation here is that when a person adopts a label, usually of an 'inferior' type such as 'disabled' or 'sick', they are given diminished responsibility and hence, can have the liberty to do things that normal people cannot without much repercussion. Like they can do what will normally land someone in trouble such as ignore people, throw fits, be overly sexual. Basically with diminished responsibility comes more tolerance and less retributive judgement in view of their impaired condition.
So for the mental conditions, it is usually thought of as a spectrum right. Yet whether someone has a condition is usually a black/white. So the people that "lose out" are those with a "mild" condition that doesn't warrant a condition for they have no "mild" tolerance. I am thinking how many people we label criminal actually suffer from these "mild" conditions that might have been tolerated. Perhaps they too did not get the label hence the treatment/appropriate education and hence did criminal or just annoying unacceptable acts and received ire.

3. Patience can be freely given. Why do people not choose to give it oftentimes.
So here the point is that when people come to camp, they are on their best behaviour, things that would irritate them or cause them to snap they are patient with. I had a fist waved in my face and I just smiled. Why cant all people be like this all the time. Why cant I be like this all the time? If patience can be given in a camp, why should the outside world be any different?

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:16 AM|

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

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So, a kind soul has pointed out that my post on 9th may was unloving, mean and not the best testimony for Christ. I initially resisted such an attempt at correcting me but have since yknow, seen the error of my ways. I think how I see it is different from how it is originally presented. Originally presented was the language of people taking offence and like, not transmitting my message across. On these two counts I could hardly care less for I seek clarity and direct conveyancing of my point (to minimise miscommunication) and like, people taking offence is their problem so long as I am speaking the truth (and that I am right luh). The truth is offensive see.

Nonetheless, I think the point remains that the tone in which it was phrased was unideal and could be done in a more loving manner. Nothing to do with people taking offence but the case of me writing in an unideal fashion that is not quite what Jesus would have liked. That being said, why hasnt the rest of my readership brought it up???

So the post on 9th may was about the election of a new chairperson for VCF and the candidate elected was not the one I favoured. And I was complaining about him being a dreamer and all, in his own words, not practical. There was a great hope that this year would be one where VCF would really become salt and light on campus instead of ... (mean stuff deleted. lol.)

Still, I guess the constructive side of the post ought to be given as proper feedback instead of yknow, just hiding on my blog as a rant. So!

I really think VCF as an organisation ought to be more devoted towards the living out of an authentic Christian faith above everything else. Above fellowship, friends, games, free food .etc. VCF, I think, really ought to go back to its roots about protecting correct theology (while being inter denominational) and having that lived out on campus.

The fun in CF has seemingly been elevated in importance at the cost of ' Christ' . A Christian fellowship that has less Christ is arguably less attractive. Why do we want people that come mostly for the fun? Come for the Christ which ought to be the center and the fun will follow. Where is the call to serious prayer? The confession of sins? Perhaps they do exist and I just don't see it? I cant say I have seen all of CF for one.

Really there isn't a need for a cheem direction each year. I think being salt and light on campus is a good enough plan, long term and short term, we ought to work towards being this salt and light and not like, think about how to be which leads to the next point.

So yeah, point is there ought to be less dreaming and more doing. Like seriously it is easy to dream. Anybody with an imagination can dream. What needs to be done is to lead, that is why you are the leaders right. You don't hold the title of oracle or prophet but like exco, executive committee that, yknow, executes. I think the responsibility is really with the leadership to push what they want to see within the organisation and what ought to be seen, in my opinion, is VCF members leading exemplary lives not by my standards or the world's standards or even a particular church's standards but by God's standards. Like how VCF in the past year pivoted towards ' the world' (Though i really think only like a handful of people are really interested in that). On that note, I think seeing other countries .etc is important but more important is the fundamental growth in Christ and relationship with Christ. If these grow, the want to see other countries, to help other countries will occur ground-up. It is hardly that you see other countries then it helps you in your walk with God (I think). I would like to see a community of trust really united by faith more than any other thing. That is not to say we bar the doors to non-believers but that we really challenge believers to live the life one that professes belief in Christ ought to live. And this is a challenge that can never be fully satisfied on this side of mortality so no worries about it being fulfilled so you can move on to ' bigger stuff' .

[[I wrote this at]]*|5:50 PM|

Monday, June 6, 2016

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So I went to Ycamp. A few thoughts that I have to elaborate on.

1. I have no one I need to talk to. Hmm.
2. The label "disabled" allows one to get away with alot of things. What about those that do not get the label.
3. Patience can be freely given. Why do people not choose to give it oftentimes.

Also, think there is a chance that I will fall sick.
And also, where are all the Christians? It is a YMCA camp lol. Christians busy doing internships and summer exchange and shennanigans like that right.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:17 AM|

Thursday, June 2, 2016

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I really need the holy spirit's help to choose. For I in my sinful nature choose unwisely.

Everyone wants to pursue something of worth. So either you make the thing you pursue 'worthy' or you change the things you pursue. For what is of worth is that which it appears to one (in the relevant sense of being related to pursuing). Can I will that what I pursue be of worth? E.g Can I even will that being a bum is worthy? maybe. Should I? I shouldn't. But maybe you can.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:43 AM|