[[How has been]]

Saturday, August 27, 2016

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less than a month to exchange. let's.

ramp it up.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:54 PM|

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

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Sometimes i wonder whether I do things for God, for myself or for others. I think it is most telling when I complain about it that I am drawing attention to it. In which case it is likely to be for others. Indeed one ought do good deeds without proclaiming them.

I wanna write a story or poem about being king of your own domain, your room.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:19 AM|

Saturday, August 20, 2016

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I am of the impression that philosophy is muddled and interested in the unimportant now. Here philosophy being defined as that being taught in most universities. A pity really. It perhaps, really is the wisdom of the world that is foolishness in God's sight.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:13 AM|

Friday, August 19, 2016

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If you say you follow God, seek God with all your heart, how can you pursue any other thing with greater fervour than God?

Many Christians in Singapore are "blessed" (the inverted commas because it might hardly be a blessing if it leads people away from God) with material and whatnot. Singapore has this concept of meritocracy which, to some, is closely related to this concept of excellence. You want to be excellent at stuff. Why not leading an excellent Christian life?

There is this idea of "doing your best", why apply it to studies and/or work and no seeking God. I call bullshit on everyone that says "but God placed me in school/ in the workplace so I have to do my best there" and hence use it to put their priority there. No, the priority is ALWAYS seeking God. And you do your best for God (apparently) and you think God will be more pleased with a "best" employee/student than one who devotes his time to prayer and reading the bible and living a life of obedience? Sure you ought to do your best in school/the workplace but on levels of priority these are secondary, leading out from the primary that is seeking God. Let me not just bash the material/pride side of things, whats with this nationalism or schoolism. What? since when is your identity in either of these?

What lameness is this "contented" Christianess. Seriously. Christians should be content with what they have e.g material things, accolades .etc. AND UNCONTENTED WITH the sin in their own lives, the closeness of their relationship with God .etc. Why is it so often the other way around? Are you so sure that your walk is blameless before God? Where is your working out your salvation in fear and trembling? Do you press on and strain towards Christlikeness or something else? Do you hear God's voice and walk so close to him such that you are so assured of your salvation? Can you say you have fought the good fight? No you cant. You can only say meh, I put in some effort. You think some effort is good enough?

Those who are radical and firm in their commitment, please do seek me out. Then you can help me (for I need help), and we can stumble and struggle our way towards death in light of something far better.

Do I sound self-righteous? Maybe. Am I hypocritical in the sense that I am what I described and bashed? Maybe. But please, come lets work towards it and not accept it. Or perhaps maybe others are really striving and I do not see it. If so, please tell me (dont worry it is not proud to say that you are striving if it is what you really are doing).

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:21 AM|

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Just read on heaven being nearness to God. People have a wrong conception of heaven, I have a wrong conception sometimes too. Heaven is not primarily a place without suffering, sadness and sin even though it is all these. It is primarily about being once again, in the presence of God unrestricted by sin at all.

So do you want to go to heaven? Look forward to heaven?

If i am to live my life for Christ, I cant wait to see him again. If I am not to live my life for Christ, hmmm, perhaps I wont see him.

Very important uh, God is not just a means to an end (be it ultimate bliss (take that 'hedonism') or whatevernot). God is the end that we seek in itself.

[[I wrote this at]]*|2:55 AM|

Thursday, August 18, 2016

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Wouldn't it be great if everyone that calls themselves Christian were a true Christian. Not a perfect person but a person striving to emulate a perfect Christ. Sometimes I think many "Christians" set the bar too low. Not that we reach the bar by our own strength, or even in our own lifetime.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:02 AM|

Monday, August 8, 2016

[[On the moral choice]]

So in my church youth camp, the speaker introduced this concept that following God is a moral choice.

I asked wouldnt this moral choice come after like knowing God exists? I was thinking along the lines of you can only follow something you know to exist. Like you know (or allow) God to exist first then you decide whether or not to follow him.

The answer I was given is that this seems to be the case but it actually isnt. That the moral undergirds the intellectual, at least many times. The speaker then gave an example (which isnt meant to be fully representative) of a girl who used to be in CF and did several stuff such as mission trips .etc. who thereafter 'left' the faith and asked like how do you know the Bible to be true, prove that God exists .etc. Upon deeper probing, the root cause was that she had gotten herself a non-Christian boyfriend and hence this rejection of the faith.

Hmm. This seemed to open the issue of this girl being 'in Christianity' as the baseline and hence the rejection of the faith due to 'moral' reasons. What about people outside of the faith? I guess it is really true that many people would not even consider Christianity due to the moral claims it makes on a person's life. For one, that all have sinned and are in need of a saviour and secondly, to strive to lead a life of purity as defined by the Bible after accepting God's saving plan of Jesus.

I think there is certainly the moral dimension (more than I had initially given though idk if it is absolute). People just resist the idea of being subordinate due to self-centeredness (here I use the term moral-neutrally though for myself (and the Bible) it is clearly moral-negative), entirely subordinate to another entity and hence might tend to it not existing.

And today I was thinking about other things, things that do not have an ontological claim to realness and are clearly man-made. Things such as the state and 'human rights'. Why do people think they exist? Is it purely instrumental, purely because they gain something? Because it is easy? Since when does truth actually have anything to do with instrumentalist actually? Why would anyone subscribe to human rights actually? Really beats me. It seems clearly illogical given the creator was human. Perhaps it is a moral acceptance. An acceptance of a certain way of life and I guess, a justification for THE PERSON'S OWN way of life that conforms to it and a means to condemn other people who do not conform to what one conforms too.

Now, Im supposed to write on how I don't accept the authority of the state on me. Perhaps later or tomorrow.

[[I wrote this at]]*|7:16 PM|

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

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I am quick to dismiss the smallest of actions by others as 'they are wrong' yet I do not hear the rationale, the justifications that they might have.

I see others behaving and I apply my own internal standard, perhaps they struggle with things I struggle less yet they are triumphant in things I struggle with most.

I wonder about other people's relationship with God by viewing their actions. Probably those who view my actions question my testimony for Christ too.

But i really dont wanna care about what others think. Perhaps, then I should care about how I would think if I see myself, at least, yknow, satisfy some form of the universal imperative formulated by Kant.

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:07 AM|