[[How has been]]

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

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Im living the life man. Eat sleep play computer repeat. It is all comfortable and all. Nice in small doses. Some times I wish I could save time. And use it when i'm feeling miserable. Like when I am in reservist. God is good though. He calls me. I am distracted quite abit, but I think, sometimes, I do listen. When I do, I try to re-align.

Why is it that my natural position is to seek distractions. To just, distractify. That was rhetorical la. Though I wish it is not.

[[I wrote this at]]*|6:52 AM|

Monday, December 12, 2016

[[On Faith]]

I see my self as "coming to know Christ more rationally than others", by that i mean that arguments and like non-personal evidence played a bigger role in me coming to know Christ. Yet for all the powers of the human intellect, certainty that the Christian God exists eludes us, eludes me. There is no evidence that cannot be doubted (fairly, I would think). As much as I want to conclude with apodictic certainty that God exists from reason alone and the Bible, and creation alone, I cannot. There is always the skeptical argument. Or an alternative way of explaining. For all my talk about "go and search for yourself", I'm pretty sure that the outside world (including the Bible and all), really, is insufficient to cause full-hearted conversion. A conversion of the type that will have you live your life in relative poverty or whatevernot for the sake of the gospel. A view of Jesus as the treasure that you will give up whatever you value most on earth here to purchase.

For sure, the outside world points towards God and, I would hold is sufficient evidence towards God such that humans are culpable (see early chapters of romans) for not knowing God. But humans, me, I, am blinded by sin, the inborn desire to want to live my own way and I cannot see this, I would say that my intellect is necessarily blinded to this "proof" of God via creation and the Bible. I would further say that the intellect, together with creation and the Bible unmistakably has to affirm the possibility of there existing a God

This brings in the need for Faith, the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Necessarily (here it is not a logical necessity but a necessity in light of sin) faith is required for belief and this faith is an act of grace, freely given by God to the elect. I take "not seen" to mean not perceived in whatever form to the intellect. So, one must have conviction of things not proven (to my mind). That is the call of the Bible and it, in essence, is asking for something that cannot be compelled by reason and the epistemic things, in essence, a leap into the unsure. This faith reaches two ways (to me) one to the past and present, that, the foundation on which what I believe in stands on and the future which I hope for.

My faith is weak. I say this by looking at the fruits and actions that my faith leads to. I daresay if you have faith you will be praying fervently, everyday. If you have faith, you will be reaching out towards other people. If you have faith, God will be working through you powerfully (though perhaps not publicly). It is a lie to say that your faith is strong if you do not live in accordance to what you claim to believe in. The only exception is if your mind believes but your mind is unable to control your body, say you have parkinsons disease or are under demonic influence (which will not happen if you have the Holy Spirit within you, another topic for another day) or are like tortured until you are completely under pure physical responses. That is not to say you cannot sin while you have faith. A person may possess faith but still sin, in which case, he temporarily puts his shield of faith down. With the shield of faith up, no temptation or darts of the wicked one should be able to lead one to sin. Also, while if you have faith, you will do certain acts, doing those acts doesnt necessarily mean you have faith. (Just pointing this out to those who do not study philosophy or logic (lol).

One type of evidence that has not been discussed is that of personal evidence. By this I refer to things like feelings, intuitions, visions .etc. own experiences basically. I would say that even though our eyes are blinded by sin to natural revelation pointing conclusively towards God, spirit revelation allows us this Faith, this conviction. Spirit revelation of course refers to revelation given to the particular person by the Holy Spirit. Siritl revelation can come from spirit inspired reading of spirit inspired scripture, personal growth in the Spirit, miracles or whatevernot. The point is, spirit revelation is given to the people who God chooses and it is personal i.e non-transferable. A spirit revelation towards one person might be the grounds of another person's spirit revelation but it would be personal to each. An example would be if the spirit opens the eyes of another person to see Christ through the change in a convict after coming to know Christ for example.A spirit revelation could also be a removal of the sin blindfold which normally blinds people to natural revelation.

Application: God promises the Holy Spirit to those who ask for it. Ask God for the Holy Spirit, ask God for faith, and you will receive it.

Im sleepy, this last part wasn't concluded well. If you detect any inaccuracies do notify me and we can talk about it and I will change it if you are right.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:14 AM|

Friday, December 9, 2016

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So, I just came back from two trips, one to London and the other to Sweden.
I think, I really do not give a shit about seeing the world. It really is much more about seeing people.
I think, next to a relationship with God, relationships with other people is the most important.
I think, I dont really wanna do my essays. Thought i did the NT theology one pretty well (not that it will score well, but I put in some effort). Now im running a motivation deficit which my later self is surely gonna pay for it.
I think, I really need to see things correctly, to properly see the big things as big and the small things as small. To desire after the big things, to not be satisfied with the small things. Human affirmation, sex, grades .etc. all these are small things. Of course you can be happy if you get them, but the strive has to be something that fully transcends all these.
I really do hope that more people come to know Christ and that I know Christ deeper. That our relationship can transcend that of just human friendship, which, while beautiful and all, can be improved by having both parties belonging within the same body of Christ.
I really do need to pray more. And eat less chocolate.
I just calculated, perhaps I might not meet my expenditure budget that easily for exchange afterall.
Ahh! Essays!
Idk why am I watching so much Dota, it is just a waste of time. Perhaps I really ought not watch any Dota at all. My exclusion clause is too weak. Too many things come in.
To love and be loved is really good, in itself (maybe), I think. For that is what we were created to be, and what God is.
COME WITH ME GUYS (AND GIRLS). PLS.
Oho, and just nice, I read about love God, love others.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:21 AM|