Welp. I just tilted in poker. Feels bad man. And I realised I am really not spending my time very wisely. Poker, Dota, whatevernot. Just trying to get short bursts of dopamine. think.. I should shift my time away from these activities. Played some mahjong too ytd. Guess maybe should socialise more (not just for the sake of socialising) and all. Perhaps im way too un-FOMO such that I might be content with an exchange spent playing computer but I think that would be unideal. Not who I want to be as a person. 

Think it would be ideal if i restart a reading habit. Needs effort tho. Like much effort. So instinctively I tend towards just playing something. To be fair, I am playing stuff that is challenging and not mindless like watching tv. Poker requires lots of skill, so does Dota and arguably chess. and of course, other aspects can be defended too e.g social aspect whatnot, preventing dementia.

Have been sleeping poorly, decided to go for frisbee. Went for frisbee and now my ankle hurts again. Sigh. But hopefully, a good night's rest. 

I think I need to re-orientate my life again. As always. Every few months. It becomes very easy to clutter up my life with all sorts of unimportant things. Need to run the de cluttering program, the defragmenter. And sort everything out according to an outline. Like God's outline. Hopefully my outline resembles God's outline somewhat.