[[How has been]]

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

[[Civilisation]]

It seems to me that civilisation has accentuated and amplified the evils of humanity.

When there is great wealth to be had, there is great greed. When there is great power, there is great lust for said power.

It seems to me, that the greatest evils (if one can even speak of them that way) have always been committed by great powers. When you have an empire you can kill millions, torture them. When you are in a tribe, the most you can do is strike down your brother, and even then, you face reckoning.

Perhaps when people had less, they knew more good, knew more about how they were created to be. When people created more, discovered more, they became their own Gods more, and started worshipping themselves - a longer life, bright baubles, grand monuments.

In rural villages, people know community, know what is like to invite strangers into their homes and share what little they have. They know how to sing for the joy of singing, and not because they might be thought of as good singers. They enjoy the sun instead of hiding in buildings, they appreciate the shade instead of bemoaning the lack of aircon. They see sunrises and sunsets, not only on holiday, and not just for the instagram. They walk in the rain and feel the droplets of water the sky sends to the ground for nourishment, supposedly. They don't hide under umbrellas, get mildly upset at the inconvenience it causes to their commute.

Do things, for the sake of the things in themselves. And not towards some larger future goal. I think this idea of constant accumulation, constant striving towards something more is really misplaced. The Singaporean troupe of study hard- get grades- get job- get married- have kids- raise kids well .etc .etc. All are reasonably good things, but they shouldn't be the aim. It just happens yknow. Life should not be sooooo planned, I think. There should be alot of flexibility for enjoying things in themselves, time in themselves.

Well at the end of this perhaps you expect me to conclude with a longing for the past (that i have never been in), some idealised version of oh everyone was happier then. Oh relationships were better, people were more like people even though they died of illnesses and occasionally starved and lost children and died in childbirth and couldn't play computer games. At least they could swim in a river and stand a chance to get swept away while fishing.

But no, thats not the conclusion. I'll write the conclusion when i get back.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:47 PM|

[[Different people connecting to different parts]]

If I am an amalgamation of my parts, and other people are an amalgamation of their parts.
If we connect significantly better to people who are similar to us.

I find myself in somewhat of a peculiar situation. For I keep changing. And when I change, those whom I once knew, becomes more distant even though we might have been very similar before.

And yet, the new people I meet, who are now somewhat similar to me, probably do not understand my past very well, for it is too different from their past.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:16 AM|

Monday, May 28, 2018

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I feel rather stifled actually... Like by the game I'm playing. By things going on. That I cannot think clearly. I don't read enough. I think in spurts, and am easily distracted. Lets hope tomorrow goes better.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:49 AM|

Monday, May 21, 2018

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Today we were playing a game. I was losing, and feeling rather displeased that I was losing, for I like to win generally. But my friend decided that he will make a mockery of the game and try to lose. And thus, he subverts the system.

Really simple yet really insanely powerful. Because what are rules, what is the game? Why strive towards things?

[[I wrote this at]]*|1:21 AM|

Friday, May 11, 2018

[[On creative play]]

I read https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/you-were-made-to-play

and it agrees really well with what I think. Sorry, somehow I didn't post this.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:15 AM|