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Monday, August 26, 2019

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I've recently been doing a really tedious job that cannot be automated. And I'm wondering why is it so hard to automate such a job?

Basically the task is super simple for a human. Transfer some sort of information from some files to a central database.

Let me given an example. Let's say you have many many drawings by a school of preschoolers and you have a central registry with all the preschoolers names. The preschoolers also put their names on each of their drawings. What you want is to record, say, the colors of shirts that the humans wear for the assignment "my family".

And this is a pretty obvious and simple task right? But the amount of humanness needed to parse a unique drawing and recognise a "human" and a "shirt" is immense. And what if some classes drew stick figures and others the fatty kind of drawings?

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:39 PM|

Sunday, August 25, 2019

[[On idle games (again?)]]

Have you played an idle game before? How it works is that you spend time to gather resources. With the resources gathered you can invest in all sorts of upgrades and tech or magic or whatever the game wants to call it in order to harvest resources faster. And so this cycle feeds itself. This is the very broad stroke of an idle game, it may be that resource A allows you to harvest resource B faster which feeds to resource C faster and when you reset, you can harvest resource A faster based on however much resource C you had. But the broad general idea is faster and faster, stronger and stronger.

It is a progress oriented game. And since I am an optimisation sucker, I love such games.

But I was thinking this is such an apt metaphor for the current human paradigm. Progress to progress faster to progress faster to progress faster. Wheeeee! choo choo goes the human train.

I guess this is optimisation/maximisation vs contentment. Two ways of living life. One farmer says I wanna do the best I can, so he plants triple crop (per year), with the money he invests and buys another plot which he also plants triple crop such and such. The other farmer says I wanna have enough and so he plants only 1 crop cycle a year and harvests enough to feed his family with a little spare (or not, depending on him).

The optimiser is fed progress though. He watches his income increase and ploughs the rewards back in to increase income more. And bam! it is compounded because that is just how it works.

I just wonder whether optimisation is a pipe dream. I really love optimisation though.

And the exponential function is so addictive. If I hold it off another 5 years I'll have twice the amount, another 5 years it doubles again! And again!

Of course optimisation and contentment can coexist in some middle ground. The problem with me is i'm such a purist and keep living in the future and so my present is so determined by future but the future is perhaps not future enough.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:01 AM|

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

[[Short story 3: Part 1]]

"BILLIONAIRE AND WIFE SHOT DEAD WHILE VACATIONING AT PRIVATE BEACH" screamed the headline. Bob scanned the rest of the article. No clear suspects. This is the second suspicious death of a HNW (High Net Worth) individual this month after the death of the ex-CEO of a large oil and gas company when his house burnt to the ground a suspected case of arson.

Bob chuckled. This was actually the fourth death this month and 13th worldwide since May. Bob understood why the American papers did not include the less publicised death of HNW people elsewhere in the world. Americans did not seem to have much interest in contemplating the wider world. The media pandered to their viewers. It was how the echo chamber was created.

Nonetheless, the HNW community had certainly taken note of the happenings to their ilk. Ripples of fear propagated through the community rapidly and was amplified multiplicatively every new death occured. Long accustomed to security and power, these people had scant experience with fear and found it to be a repulsive emotion. While their internal sense of security was shaken, these people still controlled vast amounts of resources and spared nothing to regain the sense of peace taken from them. Private security firms had increased in share prices by 40% on the back of a 120% increase in demand for their services. Security modifications on luxury cars and private jets were also seeing rising demand.

Bob was amused. He had invested as much money as he could get his hands on within these private security firms and was waiting for the opportune moment to cash in on the fear of the rich. It was only a few million, he was not that rich and too large a sum would start casting some suspicions even though he had taken the necessary precautions. It felt fantastic, really fantastic to profit from the fear and sorry situation the rich found themselves thrust in. Giving the rich a taste of their own medicine although he reckoned (probably accurately) that the rich had desensitised themselves to the fear within the general public that allowed their privileged positions at the top of an increasingly exploitative chain. It felt perversely euphoric to make a dent into their bubble. Bob savored the moment and wondered how long this would last.

Wealth and power always won. Every society always tended to excesses by the wealthy at the expense of the rest of the population. Every time the wealthy trembled, it was only temporarily. Sure, it could be a whole new set of faces that control the wealth and the power but their actions to protect and hoard were universal across time. One despot could be replaced by a class of despots. A monarchic feudal system could be replaced by an oligarchy of tycoons but the end result was always the rich getting what they could while the poor endured what they could. Bob noted that it was more as if wealth and power had a new set of underlings that they had corrupted to do their bidding across all ages and religions every time the prevailing order was destroyed and their lackeys were overthrown. Many people were willing to pay a huge price to become the lackeys of wealth and power, demi-Gods in their own right and none had proven immune, over time, to the corruption that this gift was wedded to however noble their intentions might have been at the onset.

But this made the temporary upheavals all the more glorious to be savored. When wealth and power were still in the old guard's hands and they were desperately wondering where it all went wrong while clutching desperately at the answer that they sought refusing to let go. Why wealth and power did not make them fully Gods, only demi-Gods. And why everyone so irrationally hated them when they were demi-Gods. Bob especially loved how they tried to put out whatever it was threatening them by using their wealth and power and wondering why their Gods had let them down. Like the apocryphal story of "let them eat cake". Like Sang Nila Utama if he had held on this his crown and refused to throw it in the sea to quell the storm and drowned clutching his crown as a flotation device.

Bob really loved hearing his richer associates talk about how they were always targeted, how other people were always jealous. How it was better to be a normal person while never giving up their riches. It was all so amusing.  And now they were scrambling, fitting their sprawling residences with the latest in anti-intruder technology, hiring body guards that wouldn't earn, in a lifetime, what they earned in a month. They lost sleep on their gold infused water beds in a fully regulated environment.

Bob turned his attention back to the computer and the work awaiting him. There was still much to do.


The police were flummoxed and under great pressure. They were also out of their depth. The average policeman in the country where the billionaire couple was shot hardly "investigated" a crime they did not have a good idea who the perpetrator was. As it was, many crimes that they "investigated" were instigated by them in order to supplement their meager income with voluntary donations.

The police chief of the state, AA, was irate because his good friend and direct superior, BB, had set him an unrealistic objective knowing full well it was unrealistic. BB knew it was unrealistic because BB was AA's predecessor and had played a big role in shaping the force AA commandeered today. BB did what he had to do to AA since Interpol had sent an agent directly to his office to stress how important this case was and threw around some prominent names that he recognised. On a unrelated but no less important note, the rich and influential local backers of the police were also jumpy and had asked BB to set their minds at ease.

AA sulked. He could pass his displeasure further down the chain of command to his deputies and wash his hands off it as BB had done to him. BB had made it clear that he wanted a thorough investigation within two weeks with documentation according to international standards. AA almost laughed out loud when he heard that- BB had once told him that even if they were to completely fabricate an investigation, the documentation would be no where near to international "western" standards.

Thankfully, AA was not entirely spineless, he had joined the force with a certain sense of justice although he had revised his standards many times over the years in order to rise up the ranks. He decided that he would try his best to bring this murderer to justice after all. He summoned his most trusted lieutenant and assembled an A team of the most capable policemen he could find in his district and took a serious crack at the case.
Bob knew that his streak of luck would not last forever. With each kill, the stakes grew higher and the prestige and bounty for cracking the cases ballooned accordingly. Generally police in-aptitude and corruption would only provide a smokescreen for so long. Besides, he had ruffled some feathers in really dangerous places. And those that siphoned money out of these police systems could channel these monies into more capable and ruthless private investigators to get on his tail. Still, he hoped that the precautions he had taken would hold for another year or so, with some luck. It was only a matter of time before power caught up to him, the angel of justice. He would have to play his cards right to maximise the enjoyment he got out of this.

AA sat in his office pondering his special task force's findings. The billionaire and his wife were both shot twice at close range, from a copse of vegetation that would have offered camouflage and cover. From the bullet wounds, it seemed that the killer was firing an assault rifle or a really powerful handgun.

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:20 PM|

Sunday, August 11, 2019

[[Some reflections on job hunting]]

So I have been hunting for a job for about 2 and a half months or so. And I guess I've been slowly upping the intensity of the job hunt as well as the seriousness with which I'm taking it. And the effort and the quality hopefully. And also possibly lowering some standards. Hahaha. But I do hope to get a permanent job sometime soon.

Let me compile a list of thoughts.
1. I love my younger self that said I'm gonna study philosophy and pure philosophy because who cares about getting a job. Even though he makes my current task harder, I think it is still the right decision.
2. The same can be said about not getting internships. Though now perhaps, working some temp jobs, I understand why employers would prefer people with internship experience. Oh snap! They learnt to sieve people like me out, which they kinda should I guess...
3. Rejection for a job application sucks. As with any sort of rejection for something that you want.
4. Though perhaps I might loathe needing to apply for jobs more than just the rejection itself (or maybe it is just a aggravating factor).
5. Like everything, this is a great learning process. I shan't be too self absorbed and shall try to hold things lightly.
6. I am really curious as to what sort of job I will end up with.
7. This process really tries your identity. I guess this is good but I don't like having my identity tried. Am learning to like it.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:47 PM|

Sunday, August 4, 2019

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Well I guess I am sort of starting work. And the temptation to put alot of myself/base identity in work is strong and like an undercurrent because that is what I say people doing all around me all the time. And I am kinda competitive. I also am writing a story... but its been kinda hard to put in the time required because I can no longer write until late in one short burst of inspiration or pissed at myself then write alot.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:08 PM|

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How to read a book (Adler)
Cost of discipleship (Bonhoeffer)
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