[[How has been]]

Saturday, September 28, 2019

[[On systemic change]]

I just read a facebook post just commenting on fundamental systemic change and how he says human systems are built on human nature.

I think that is true and actually very insightful. Human systems, systemic oppression - all that stems from human nature. Seems to me that these systems are WHOLLY created by humans and if they are flawed, it is due to human flaws, like there is no where else flaws can be introduced.

I guess the point that I am making is that systems and the people in the systems are intertwined - you cannot change the systems without changing the people in the system. And the context here is I guess people talking about changing systems. Because the systems fundamentally reflect the people. Imposing a system - would it change the people? Or would a change in the people change the system? I seem to think the latter's effect is far greater.

If that is the case, the focus should be on changing people rather than changing systems yes? And systemic change will come someday? Surely it can't be just one or the other, both have to be in tandem? But perhaps it seems that focusing on systemic change in itself will be futile while changing people will necessarily lead to systemic change (though of course, you being a changed person, would lead to your role in making the systemic change).

And of course the next question is should you change people? (well postmodernism suggests no for those who think this is a moot point, as do all the strains that teach you to be who you are or something along those lines). And after that, how do you change people? Can you even change people?

I'm also thinking about several other topics, maybe i'll write them out tomorrow.

about stagnating, other people knowing and the christian life spreading, how embers and cold coals cannot coexist

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:12 PM|

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

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When you are in control, being not in control or out of control is so tempting.
When you are out of control you want control.

Isn't it great, life. When you cede control, you want to wrest it back?

Too many things. Not making much sense. Time goes by slowly and yet too quickly.

I really am curious as to how i will end out but the present is so... lacklustre.

And spiralling kinda, last night, and maybe for a few days...

I want to have all and to have nothing.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:26 PM|

Monday, September 9, 2019

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What society tells us -
Hide your flaws, hide your shame, keep your failures private. Share your joy. Share your triumphs.

Put your best foot forward. Everything is alright. I wonder how much of it is to create an image and thereafter, to maintain that image.

Why would anyone want to connect with a facade though?

Perhaps one could get through all the walls and finally see what is behind the presentation. But why do we have to do this dance, can't we just be real from the start? Or as much as possible.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:41 PM|

Wednesday, September 4, 2019

[[Cést La Vie]]

"You can't let him get away with this!" The winner me hollers.
"He already has." The pragmatist me points out.
"Wheres your pride?" The winner me retorts.
"It's fine..." The dejected me sighs.
"Don't be a loser!" The winner me challenges.
"I already am..." The dejected me whimpers
"...And that is only prudent". The pragmatic me continues
"Who cares if he is stronger? I've gonna hit him back! Where it hurts!" The impulsive me declares.
"I'm sure you will." The joker in me deadpans.
"Just let me whine and lick my wounds in peace" The dejected me pleads.
"You need to stop being a doormat. Girls hate doormats." The lonely me states.
"Stand up for yourself!" The winner me exhorts.

"Oh and one more thing," He says.
"What?" I stammer, half-combatively.

"I need that report on my desk first thing tomorrow." He says.
"Sure thing, I'll do it tonight." The ass-kisser in me grovels.

"You may leave." He says.

The winner in me turns slightly quicker than usual and walks off, with feet striking the carpeted floor slightly louder than usual.

[[I wrote this at]]*|10:05 PM|