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Friday, August 20, 2021

[[Attempt to get some clarity on relationships]]

Maybe all that one needs, most days, is someone that cares enough to listen about your day. And someone that you are fond of enough, to listen about their day.

Do you think that is enough?

Or must you work towards more?

I don't know man, it seems like i'm very intense. It either is up up and away. Or crash and burn. I'm not good at simmering. At the start I always think i'm ok with the first paragraph, all I want is the first paragraph and it is true!! 

But then after that... I want more!

Idk man, I feel the first paragraph thing feels like a base human need... The issue then, is it is not just about someone that cares enough to listen about your day. I mean... most parents would care enough to listen to your day? Or actually maybe they just appear to care enough but they actually don't? But my point is not about parents, its about caring in an appropriate way, like I guess, can value add. Otherwise its just like talking to a robot.

Think maybe there's a problem in that... It's like greed or something. Maybe that's why i keep pushing people away. Actually maybe I don't push people away, maybe I ask too much of them until they leave?

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:13 PM|

Thursday, August 12, 2021

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Have you ever tried, instead of quitting drugs, you have drugs quitting you?

While it may appear to be the same in effect, it is not. In one case, you are still an addict, in the other, you are hopefully not.

Have you tried to quit every single game? Everything that you think is not a good way to spend your time?

And then what? Your brain finds new games, new ways to while away time, for it loathes to remain unoccupied.

But what if you push through that? And still chuck every distraction aside?

Try it out, realise it is a waste of time, quit. Try it out, realise it is a waste of time, quit. Repeat that process and optimise it. Soon the fat in the gaps between the steps leak out. And you are a thin lean quitting machine.

Then stare at the blankness. Or the darkness. Or the light within. And commit to staring into it. For what else are you going to do?

Resist the urge to cycle through people. It is toxic. Short lived. Win the war within.

Then idk, maybe you can write a new blogpost or something

[[I wrote this at]]*|9:42 PM|

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