[[How has been]]

Sunday, September 24, 2023

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What options do I have now with my soon-to-be hit age milestone?

Well for money it is simple, stop buying stupid companies and shorting stuff. Start only buying blue chip profitable companies.

Well for the other, I don't really have a great answer. Well, not going back to my own vomit will be a good start. Maybe should open the horizons. Or maybe just be patient and life will pass me by and that should be fine by me. Maybe.

Well for church, maybe moving will bring about much needed rejuvenation. But i dunno, I'm under no impression that switching church will be a golden bullet. But I think, staying in the same church after having decided it is not good long term is so painful. Maybe should just leave quickly and get it over and done with.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:01 PM|

Tuesday, September 19, 2023

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Perhaps the thing that defeats any looking down or whatnot would be a sheer returning to common humanity and frailty. Or sheer humanness. Like, everybody shits, so... how can one be of much more value than another.

The brotherhood of humanity is very fascinating. Putting religious thought aside, it is actually rather fundamental and observable that humans are not so different from one another. maybe 1% different. But we make a great deal of the 1% differences in intellect, attractiveness .etc (im not saying the difference of X is 1% but that on the whole, these things are the 1% differences as opposed to things that we have in common e.g having emotions, having intellect, having arms legs so on so forth).

Perhaps the proper perspective is to zoom out and then love your fellow man. Because we are one and the same.

Lets not think so much about why we should love others that are one and the same and just assume it lol.

[[I wrote this at]]*|11:39 PM|

Saturday, September 16, 2023

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I need to write a list of things to do to spend time for leisure and prioritise them for how many hours to spend on per week so that I can use my leisure time better instead of mindlessly using the internet or worse.

But if I codify this, e.g play piano 1 hour a week, read books 3 hours a week, sing songs 1 hour a week .etc. I fear that it will not be leisure any more, but another check on the to-do list.

And I fear that it will take up more of my willpower, which is already in short supply. Or maybe not in short supply, but already strained on routine commands.

Like ifI read more bible I tend to pray less. So sort of weird trade off.

[[I wrote this at]]*|12:40 AM|